If she had lived she would have been over a year old. She would have been toddling around on her tiny feet and lisping a few words. I can see her so plainly, Marilla. Oh, I know now that Captain Jim was right when he said God would manage better than that my baby would seem a stranger to me when I found her Beyond. I’ve learned that this past year…and when I meet her again I’ll know her–she won’t be a stranger. (from Anne’s House of Dreams by L.M. Montgomery)
This isn’t exactly a Mother’s Day quote, but I am using it because today would have been the second birthday of my April Baby. As I decorate cakes this weekend for a church dessert auction, I will wonder what my two-year-old’s party theme would have been. What sort of cake would I have made for April Baby? Which of my friends’ toddlers would be here, filling my little house with joyful noise? I guess by now we would have a little training toilet in the bathroom and crayon scribbles on the refridgerator.
Today I am not sad, as I thought I would be. I am content with the life I have, the wonderful little Benjamin I have. I love my little April Baby still and treasure that memory. But I can’t find any tears of regret or sadness today. You might think I’m crazy (you wouldn’t be the first to think it), but I’m actually having fun imagining what a birthday party in Heaven must be like. And I am using today as a reminder to pray for those who have lost little ones to miscarriage, stillbirth, SIDS, abortion, ectopic pregnancy, accidents, etc. It is a hard road, but it does get easier with time. And there are so many waiting for us in Heaven, throwing parties that we can’t imagine. My heart is very tender to those of you whose pain is so fresh.
Shanna will post for the next two days and I will resume the Mother’s Day quotes on Monday.